"Could you?"

As I uttered the decision to do a Bachelor's Degree in IT, I got a lot of negative feedbacks from people close to me. Some of them were being frank with their words, some were giving undetermined facial expressions yet some had decided they should not say anything instead just stood there and temporarily became mute people. I shall not lie, I was hurt.

One of the closest persons in my life said, "Software Engineering? Owh c'mon. That is ridiculous! I mean, could you?"

His spoken thought killed a little me that afternoon; causing me a sudden heartbreak. I cried but my tears were invisible. He continued.

"Listen. I don't mean to scare you but from what I heard, that IT major has no future. The marketability is almost negative for fresh graduates. Those who got hired should be considered LUCKY."

"Eff.." I murmured. I couldn't help it. He was still in his second year of studying the major of Creative Art. For God sake, how can you be so sure about that?

He was saying something but I cut him off.

"You know what? Thanks for the 'info'," much sarcastically I ended the conversation.


I watch him walked away. He could have just exaggerate things over, couldn't he? But why won't my mind just let it walk away?

Maybe, I was scared. Obviously it took a lot of guts for me to make this super decision. I mean, if I don't have some nerves, I might just continue what I was doing in the first place and work as a certified Accountant.. later.

Fuck this shit. I'm not doing Accountancy anymore and I shall not lie. I am still scared with the decision I'm about to make.